The Billionaire’s Desires

Nathan’s POV

GUILTY!!!

That’s how I feel right now. “I feel as guilty as hell”

I mean, What the hell did I just do??

How could take a lady innocence on our first day together?

That’s so bad!

I waited for her to fall asleep, then I’m open my drawer and brought out a pack of my favorite Treasurer cigarette. I got my lighter from the dresser before walking out through the door that leads to my balcony. I have a good view of the city from my balcony and I always love the sight. I stood there and enjoyed the beautiful view while I took out a stick of cigarette and lit it. I’m not a big fan of smoking, but right now, I think I really need it to calm my nerves because I’m slowly going insane. I never knew sex could be so amazing, so terrific. Hillary Futon just made me feel like I’m on top of the world.

I’ve always seen her hanging around with some of her friends. She doesn’t party around or indulge herself in any of the fun games in school, she is more like a book worm, a nerd. And now that I think about it, I think I’ve always had a thing for her, I just didn’t show it because I am so used to locking every emotions within me. I found myself drenched in a cold sweat as I kept thinking of how I just stole her innocence.

My heart was heavy and in turmoil as though there was a knot in it that could not be dispelled. There is something about her that always gets to me whenever I’m with her. I’ve never felt like this before. I’ve never met someone that is so attractive, yet so conservative. I smiled as I remembered the look on her face when she saw the blood on the bed, proof of her lost innocence. I can’t believe she felt ashamed of it when she should be so proud about it.

She was a virgin. A pure and innocent virgin. Yet she gave up her innocence to me, despite knowing of my reputation as a cold-hearted, emotionless guy. I don’t even know what moved me to decide to bring her back here, to my private room. I’ve never brought a woman to my private room before because I know fully well that am not committed to any relationship. I’ve never even spent an entire night with a woman. I usually leave the hotel room before morning, while they are still sleeping.

Yes, you heard me correctly, I’m not an emotionless monster, like they say. I do not suffer from Alexithymia like I made them believe. I do have a problem with girls, I mean, I hate being around them because they are just tricky and conniving. Every girl around me claims to love and care about me, but I can see through their lies and deception. They are simply trying to get my last name and the wealth that comes with that name. I could always see the greed and ambition in their eyes and it pisses me off when they try to pass it as love, it’s so fucking annoying.

I have always kept my distance from every girl so I don’t get trapped in their web of lies and deceit, but they just wouldn’t keep off, they keep throwing themselves at me, and that is why I came up with the idea to hide my emotions and pretend to be Arixithymic, but some desperate whores still tried to get to me, desperate whores like that Ariel girl that my parents want me to marry. She keeps clinging to me despite knowing that I am an emotionless guy that can never love her or satisfy their sexual desires. I still don’t know why she so desperately wants to be with my, and when I finally settle in as the new Chairman and head of the family empire, I would look deeply into her case and find out how she managed to convince my parents to agree to this crazy arrangement. She seems more desperate than other girls and I would like to know why she wants me that much. I feel so disgusted with Ariel and every other girl.

But with Hillary, it is so different. In her eyes, all I see is love and adoration. She is so different from the rest, and that is why I am glad I brought her to my special private room. It would have been more awkward if all this happened in a hotel room. “I would never have been able to forgive myself.” I don’t know why but I felt so obligated that I had to clean her up and wait for her to fall asleep before letting myself fall asleep beside her, everything is just so different when I am with her.Please check at N/ôvel(D)rama.Org.

“Have I fallen for this girl?” I thought within me. I feel so drawn to her. The mere thought of her, lying naked on my bed right now caused my dick to harden immediately as thoughts of the incredible moment we just shared came flooding back to me.

“I had to take off the condom so it wouldn’t hurt her. I didn’t let her see it so she wouldn’t feel more awkward. All I could think about was how to make it less painful for my Hilly, my heartbeat.

Damn,

She’s so vibrant and active and she had completely blown my mind away. Although it’s her first time, she was hotter and sexier than I could have ever imagined, added to the fact that she’s still a virgin. “The feeling is heavenly.”

Just thinking about how warm and tight she’d felt when I was buried deep inside of her, was enough to make my dick harden with the need to make love to her again and again. Am sure sex would never be the same for me again. “Hillary has just ruined my desire to have sex with any other woman.

“God I want to make love to her right now!

“Christ Lord Almighty!!”

Am beginning to act like a sex-deprived teenager who thinks with his dick and not his brain.

“I need serious help” I chided myself before turning to head back inside. I walked into my bedroom and saw her sleeping soundly on my bed. She looked weak and exhausted. I know I tired her out and it hurts me to see her so weak. I walked up to the dresser and picked up my phone to call my cleaning lady, Chloe,  ordering her to come up here. I always keep her around as my personal maid, but when I don’t have chores for her,  she works in the bar downstairs.

Chloe called me when she got to the door and I walked her to meet her, holding my dirty clothes and Hilly’s clothes that she had worn for the evening. She had come in while Hilly and I were having a quick bath and she took out the soiled bedding but she must have forgotten to pick up the clothes lying about in the room.

“I need you to get these dry cleaned before noon tomorrow but right now, I want you to run to the mall and get some lady’s clothes. I need something sexy and attractive and most importantly, it has to be from the shop where you shop for my sister,  nothing cheap, okay?”

“Yes boss, but I don’t know her sizes,  how do I get what would fit?” She asked after taking the credit card I held out to her. Now that I think about it, I don’t know her size of clothes or shoes or anything else. I have never shopped for a lady before,  I’ve never even gone on a proper date with a girl in my whole life. But all that is going to change now that I’ve finally found a girl that I can be with. I’m going to spend all my free time with her, showing her how much I love and adore her. I’m never letting her out of my sight, never.

I climbed in next to her and pulled her into my arms. She snuggled up to me and put her head on my shoulder and I embraced her in my arms. Having her in my arms, with her warmth and intoxicating scent, I resolved to always do things that would please her and make her happy, I would never intentionally do anything to hurt her. I am never letting her go, she would be mine to love and cherish. I can’t bear to see her suffer, not while I am still alive. I know she grew up in an orphanage and that is why she had to seek for a scholarship to study, But as of this day, she would never lack in anything she needs because she now belongs to me. I held her in my arms and slept off, having sweet dreams as I cuddled her till the sun rises.

I had the shortest sleep ever recorded in history,  I couldn’t keep my eyes shut for so long because I had a beautiful woman lying right next to me on my extremely large bed, and I can’t just stop staring at her.  Besides, I have this ache between my legs, and it’s simply because I keep staring at her and it’s making my dick hard by the minute. I had the urge to wake her in the middle of the night to make love to her but I thought against it because I know I completely wore her out last night.  I just lay on my side and stared at her, watching as she slept peacefully like a baby.

I noticed her stirring awake in the morning,  and I didn’t want her to know that I’ve been ogling her all night,  so I shut my eyes and pretended to sleep,  keeping my eyes slightly open so I can see her reaction when she wakes up beside me. She woke up a few seconds later and I saw her looking around my room, taking in her surroundings, then she turned to me with the most beautiful smile that could light up the whole world. I could see the love and passion in her eyes as she looked at my sleeping form. I couldn’t fake it anymore and a smile erupted on my face when she tried to caress my face while I slept. Waking up beside her made my heart warm and happy and that is the most amazing feeling ever.

We spent all morning making passionate love to each other. I could tell that this love and attraction works both ways, she loves me as much as I love her. I went easy on her so she doesn’t get hurt seeing as she is still new at all this. We had so much fun bringing pleasure to each other and I relished in the feeling of giving her multiple organisms, enjoying the experience of being with someone you love and truly care about.

I couldn’t bear to stay apart from her for even a minute,  I wish to spend the whole day with her, I want to know everything there is to know about her, I want to show her that my ‘reputation’ as a sick emotionless man was nothing but a lie, a disguise that would keep every whore and gold digger away from me. I asked her out for lunch and after a little convincing, she finally agreed to go with me.

After bathing,  I handed her the clothes I had sent Chloe to get for her, watching the expression on her face as she opened the very first gift that I’ve ever gotten for a woman in my whole life. Chloe had gotten a lot of nice things that I know would look perfect on her. She opened it excitedly but the brightness on her face was quickly replaced by a frown when she saw the contents of the gift bag.

I panicked as she frowned at it, I thought she did not like my first gift to her, I thought my gift would be rejected by my first love, my heartbeat. I nearly panicked when she requested for the clothes she wore last night. I knew I shouldn’t have rushed this thing between us, I knew I should have waited until I spent more time with her,  that way I would be able to know what she preferred.

I was so surprised when she admitted to me that she loved every damn thing in that gift bag. She had only rejected them because she thought that they belonged to one of my girlfriends. I saw the disgusted look she had on her face before she threw the things on the bed, making it so obvious that she is jealous. I nearly laughed at her cute angry face as she frowned angrily and looked away from me. She looked like a child that is throwing a tantrum and it’s so amusing to watch her as her jealousy shows its ugly face.  I love the fact that she loves me enough to want to keep me all to herself,  it’s so comforting.

“How do I explain to this damsel in front of me that I’ve got my eyes set on only one woman, Her.”