His Soul & His Shame

I tossed and turned all night with the decision I took and I still am in confusion about whether I am doing the right thing or not. Thinking about making my head throb. I was making my coffee when my doorbell rang, no one visits me on weekends as everyone takes time for themselves but I can guess who that is.

I stomped towards the door and yanked it open, I am having a sour mood and I probably will have God knows till when.

"Raise and Shine, Sunshine!" Izzy waltzed into my apartment like a crazed woman, she is my only good friend other than other guys who are with me in the course, and these two years she didn't let me feel the loss of Joanna and she is literally the cheery bird and an extrovert who sees good in everything.

Joanna and Izzy are so opposite, one is a grumbling mess with a short temper and the other is patient and cheerful but still, they become good friends and I am happy that she is our friend.

"It didn't rhyme well, Izzy!" I murmured before going back to my coffee and sipping it as if my life depended on it. I need caffeine to boost me up.

"I don't care! So, I have heard from a birdie that someone is going somewhere." She tapped her chin narrowing her eyes waiting to hear from me but I like to push her buttons so much same as Joanna, they both burst like crackers when poked around and I like their reactions I know who that birdie is and they don't leave any chance to gossip about me and I don't know how friends with them.

"Umm, What are you talking about?" I pulled my innocent face and went Into the kitchen to make something for myself to eat as I hadn't had anything last night with all the thoughts plaguing my head.

"Ugh! Seriously! Miss Fay Moore? If you don't spill the beans now then I am going to tell the jake guy that you are dying to go on a date with him." My eyes widened at her threat and a smirk covered her face. Jake is the creepy guy in our class and he looks at me like he literally wants to eat me even thinking about his stare made me shiver so badly with fear and disgust.

"Izzy! Don't threaten me like that and when you already know everything then why ask me?" I scowled at her and flipped my omelet in the pan before taking out the toasts from the toaster.

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I love to hear from you, Fay! And I have a surprise for you!" she announced it like she is going to give me million dollars because of the way she has this big grin on her face.

"Okay? Yeah! I am going to visit my parents." I told without meeting her eyes and placing the breakfast on two plates. I am just not sure if I want to go.

"It's great news and I am happy that you can finally enjoy your holidays in two years." I pushed her plate toward her and sat down on the stool to eat mine.

"Yeah, I think so too. Now, what's your surprise?" I raised my eyebrows at her waiting for her to tell me what she has for me knowing she has something crazy planned for us and I wouldn't have any choice but to follow her to the surprise and join in. If not then she will sit on my chest and choke me till I say yes to her craziness.

"I am coming with you." she blurted out with a big grin on her face and waited for my reaction.

"Where?" my brows scrunched in confusion, where is she coming with me?

"With you to your home, Silly! Joanna and I decided that it will be good if I come with you so you can relax and breathe properly." huh! It's not like I don't want to take her with me but it's just I don't want to depend on anyone when finally I have become independent.

"Umm, I don't know Izzy that it's a good idea as I don't want to trouble you and you were waiting to meet your parents and siblings." I seriously don't like troubling everyone around me just because I am scared to face my problems, I am not that selfish to drag someone with me and I know how much she was missing her family.

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Don't worry about it, Fay! We have two weeks off. So I will spend a week with you and Joanna and the other week with my family." She said it like its no big deal but I am feeling guilty that she has to come with me for moral support, if it is on a normal occasion then I wouldn't have thought about it so much but she knows how hard it was for me to go back and she is doing this for me. I am really lucky that I have friends who stay with me through thick and thin.

"You Don't have to Izzy but I am very happy that you thought about it." I got up from my stool and went to her side and engulfed her in my arms showing her my appreciation. We stayed in the hug for a long minute and I am somewhat relieved that I will have someone with me throughout the journey back. I just have to stay away from Ezra.Upstodatee from Novel(D)ra/m/a.O(r)g

"Okay, great! So we have just a few hours to celebrate." she jumped out of her stool and practically ran towards my room with a happy sprint.

"What are you talking about? We have one and a half days and what is there to celebrate?" I followed her to my room and she was already rummaging through my closet, pulling out dresses and placing them on the bed making two sections. "I know that and I am not talking about it, what I am talking about is us going to the new club which opened this week to celebrate you going home." she threw the words at me surprising and it was not like we haven't gone to the clubs before or haven't had parties. It's just that I am surprised that she wants to celebrate me going to him. Izzy will be the only one who can think crazy things like this.

"Okay, if you say so." We both laughed and started rummaging through my closet to get sexy outfits for the night according to her. It didn't take much time for that and we have outfits for the night, hers consist of a black bodycon dress and mine is the same as hers but in red.

After arranging everything in place, we went back to the living room to have lunch and ordered some food and relaxed the afternoon with a movie and food forgetting about everything for a while.

Maybe everything will be fine and cool back home and maybe I am overreacting too much. Time will tell what happens there and I should stop worrying and not make a big deal out of it.