Chapter 800 Feeling Carefree
“What is it?” Master Olgic asked.
“Maybe it’s because you have been in the church since you were a child, so you are very holy and you comprehend things easily. However, do you really want to live like this forever? After all, you have not experienced love, friendship, and the busy life of the world. Perhaps you could become a priest again after experiencing all of these, then you won’t have any regrets,” Stella spoke her mind in a gentle tone.
Master Olgic was deep in thought as he stared pensively at Stella. “Do you comprehend love now?”
Stella answered, “I tried to look at it from a third person’s point of view. The more I sacrifice, the more I lower myself to go and suck up to him, get closer to him, and cling onto him. The person I am now loves him less than he loves me. There is nothing to complain about. Previously, I felt hate, pain, sadness, and fear all because of my love for him. Since I love him, why don’t we try to overcome difficulties together?”
“What happens after you’ve overcome the difficulties?” Master Olgic asked again.
Stella smiled slightly and replied, “We will go back to our mundane daily lives. With a heart of peace, I can still be together with him, laugh, and watch the autumn leaves fall, right? Plus, together, we could be even more determined in growing our hearts and minds.”
“Your comprehension is more profound than mine. It’s better to grow together than to grow alone, but it’s more difficult, and it’s harder to grasp. If you can succeed, I’m sure that it won’t be a waste of your life,” Master Olgic said with a smile.
“I think I will try to do my best in the future. I suppose the flame in my heart hasn’t gone out yet. To be alone would be too miserable for me,” Stella lowered her eyes and said.
“If you need someone to talk to, I will be right here,” Master Olgic promised.
“Thank you, Master.”
“I should be the one thanking you for giving me a refreshing idea.”
“I’ll be leaving now then,” Stella said.
Master Olgic nodded and sent her out.
Stella walked to the door and saw that Jasper’s car was still there.
She thought that perhaps it was better to stay with him.
She walked towards his car.
When Jasper saw her coming out, he got out of the car immediately and looked at her worriedly.
“You have been accompanying me for the last few days. But you were gone that day when I woke up. So, I got mad and frustrated. Besides, you were acting so indifferent to me, so I didn’t want you anymore. It’s fine if you don’t have the time to accompany me, but could you at least let me know? Being in a state of panic and not knowing anything is not a nice feeling. Could you do that for me?” Stella asked him.
Jasper nodded as a promise. He then denied, “I wasn’t being cold or indifferent toward you.”
Stella scoffed, “Do you think that I’ve studied psychology for nothing after so many years?”
“I was just… jealous,” Jasper’s face turned abnormally red as he mumbled.
Stella pursed her lips and the corners of her mouth formed a smirk. “Pfft, you were jealous of a priest? Was that necessary? Come one, let’s go home to eat. Get in your car.”
“Huh?” Jasper was pleasantly surprised.
He thought that she had already made up her mind after talking to Master Olgic.
However, his face broke into a bright smile.
Jasper was really good-looking when he smiled so genuinely. He looked like a Greek God.
Stella couldn’t help but smile back at him.
Previously, she had pretended to be indifferent. No matter how calm she looked on the outside, she still felt uneasy deep down in her heart.
Forgiving him didn’t mean she was invalidating her feelings. Instead, she wanted to let go of her grudges.
To tolerate and forgive also brought peace to the heart.
Moreover, she would feel even more at ease by letting things go when she was with someone she loved.
When they arrived home, they were greeted by Gracie’s excited barks.
“I’m going to get Gracie a playmate, what do you think?” Stella asked just then, unbuckling her seat belt and getting out of the car.
“Let’s wait until we return to A Country. If you look for one here, they might not speak the same language. That would be troublesome,” Jasper said in all seriousness.
Stella laughed as she was amused by his words.
“Give me the car keys later. I’ll get someone to drive your car back,” Jasper said.
“Is Elvis still following me around?” Stella asked curiously.
Jasper nodded and clarified, “I can’t let you be in any danger. If you don’t like it, you don’t have to report to me about anything else in the future. You can just report safety matters to me. Is that okay?”
Stella nodded. “He probably hasn’t eaten yet. Why don’t you ask him to eat with us? We could just let him stay in the house next time. It must be tough staying outside and having his meals in the open.”
“The Dark Shadow are always around. You don’t have to worry about it,” Jasper explained.Content (C) Nôv/elDra/ma.Org.
She couldn’t remember the Dark Shadow anymore.
“Go feed and Gracie. I’ll start cooking,” Stella said and went into the kitchen.
Jasper complied and went to feed Gracie.
Stella made simple preparations. She portioned out some meat to make kebab skewers. Then, she started washing the vegetables.
Jasper came in, washed his hands, and looked at her. “Do you want me to go catch a fish?”
“No, we won’t eat fish for lunch today. It’s too much of a fuss. You didn’t sleep last night, so you should go and rest after the meal. Your health is your priority, so please don’t do this again in the future,” Stella chided.
However, she also realized that Jasper was very stubborn and never listened to her.
If he hadn’t been so persistent, she probably wouldn’t have changed her mind.
Therefore, people were contradictory, and she was no exception.
She hoped that he could like her but at the same time, her heart hurt in distress for him. It was the heartache that made her realize she had feelings for him.
At this moment, there was a knock on the door.
Stella looked at the door in surprise and asked, “Who could it be?”
“It should be Elvis. I called him here,” Jasper explained and went to open the door.
“Chief,” Elvis handed over the key respectfully after greeting him.
“Come in and eat with us,” Jasper invited in a low voice.
Stella saw Elvis, but she had no memory of him at all.
Elvis had also spotted Stella. His eyes were shining with a bright gleam, and he did not dare to meet her gaze.
“Have you done something behind my back?” Stella asked him.
“N-No, of course not. How would I dare?” Elvis immediately defended himself and lowered his head.
“Well, even if you did do something behind my back, you felt guilty when you looked at me. That means that you aren’t a bad person by nature. I forgive you,” Stella said.
“Really?” Elvis was taken aback by her generosity.
Stella raised her smile. “So, you did do something behind my back.”
Elvis knew that he had fallen into her trap. He looked at Jasper helplessly.
“Back then, he had turned to Bellamy. That’s why he feels guilty toward you. But after that, he returned to me again,” Jasper explained for him.
Stella nodded in response. “Since you’ve forgiven him, there’s nothing for me to say either. Let’s eat. I’ve prepared a side salad too.”
“I’ll help you,” Jasper entered the kitchen and brought out the grill for Stella.
In addition to the vegetables, Stella also prepared sausages and burger patties that were stored in her freezer.
Elvis licked his lips at the appetizing sight. He said, “I haven’t had barbecued meat ever since I’ve come to Seattle. I especially miss the meal that Mrs. Milton prepared last year and the year before. Those were such hearty meals.”
“You should eat more then,” Stella said as she passed them their plates and took her seat.
Elvis waited until Jasper had made the first move before he started wolfing down the food.
“Were you there when we went camping the day before as well?” Stella asked him, her cheeks blushing slightly.
“No. Chief ordered us not to follow him,” Elvis answered straightforwardly.
“Oh,” Stella let out a sigh of relief. After all, they had done such intimate things out in the open. If they were to be heard or witnessed, it would be utterly embarrassing.